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Friday, June 6, 2014
I do it for the fans
Well crap, I was going to go to sleep but then I realized I had missed a couple days on the good 'ol blog. I don't want to leave you folks in the lurch.
But really, in mostly seriousness, I am writing this because I have found (And my mom may mention this every once in a while) that you need to make yourself do something to build up will-power and self-motivation. This is something I have had trouble with lately, mainly in the waking up at a decent hour so I have a chance to see more than a couple hours of daylight and in the accomplishing anything while I am awake bit of life. So, I am doing two things to help me get going again. As you may remember from my past posts (If you don't you'll just have to read them or take my word for it) I am decently self-motivated person and a hard worker to boot. But of late I've just been very good and my relatively easy job. (That was an awful thing to say, and I have made some mistakes, but I'm doing alright.)
Anyway, the two things I am doing (And I notice that they may be helping already) are: 1) this blog thing, and 2)The 30 day ab challenge. So far it's not much of a challenge aside from the tricky part of actually doing it. But I am five days strong so woot woot.
But my real goal is to reassert myself in the proper timezone, finish Elphire and Sila (I can do it, I have like 20,000 words or so left until I think that this part of the story could be considered wrapped up.) And then in July I will feel free to start on a new writing project with sassy, possibly mildly depressed, character that is in my head. I hope they stick around long enough for me to write her/him. Sometimes my characters will just wander away. And I wonder why I am so afraid of commitment I won't even go on a date. I can't even keep my half-baked characters around long enough for a chance at an adventure that I make up.
But really, in mostly seriousness, I am writing this because I have found (And my mom may mention this every once in a while) that you need to make yourself do something to build up will-power and self-motivation. This is something I have had trouble with lately, mainly in the waking up at a decent hour so I have a chance to see more than a couple hours of daylight and in the accomplishing anything while I am awake bit of life. So, I am doing two things to help me get going again. As you may remember from my past posts (If you don't you'll just have to read them or take my word for it) I am decently self-motivated person and a hard worker to boot. But of late I've just been very good and my relatively easy job. (That was an awful thing to say, and I have made some mistakes, but I'm doing alright.)
Anyway, the two things I am doing (And I notice that they may be helping already) are: 1) this blog thing, and 2)The 30 day ab challenge. So far it's not much of a challenge aside from the tricky part of actually doing it. But I am five days strong so woot woot.
But my real goal is to reassert myself in the proper timezone, finish Elphire and Sila (I can do it, I have like 20,000 words or so left until I think that this part of the story could be considered wrapped up.) And then in July I will feel free to start on a new writing project with sassy, possibly mildly depressed, character that is in my head. I hope they stick around long enough for me to write her/him. Sometimes my characters will just wander away. And I wonder why I am so afraid of commitment I won't even go on a date. I can't even keep my half-baked characters around long enough for a chance at an adventure that I make up.
Tuesday, June 3, 2014
Well this is sort of like novelling.
I am trying to write, this is not usually an issue for me. But the last few days it has been, I don't know what's gotten into me. I usually write at the coffee shop, with coffee (Obviously), but since that didn't work last time (and I am feeling incredibly lazy today) I have stayed at home and am trying to work. I made myself chocolate milk for something to drink but I finished my milk before I had had even worked up the motivation to open my word document. I have managed 643 words in the last hour. I guess that is an ok amount, but they have all been forced. I want to be immersed in my story. You know what I am talking about? When you don't see your computer screen anymore, you just see what you are writing and you can feel what your characters are feeling. It's more like you are watching the story unfold than unfolding the story. That's what I want now. Sometimes it is nice to pick apart the story connect dots that don't seem like they could be connected, but not this time. I want this one time to be effortless.
Ok, new subject. I have applied to Semester at Sea. I really really want to go on the Spring 2015 voyage. It would be an amazing, challenging, ridiculous, impossible adventure. Mainly it may end up being impossible because there is no way that I can earn the money required to go on that trip. So, if I get in, I am applying for the Presidential Scholarship. I have gotten the advice from a couple people that I need to be very specific and detailed in how to carry out my plan. My goal is to collect The Most Important Stories of the World. I want to go to people at every port and talk to them, and get them to tell me what they think the most important story is. That is specific as I am going to make it, the story could be about their own lives, their communities life, it could be a legend, or a fairytale, it could be a religious story. Anything. The challenging part of this project is 1) The whole language barrier, I can't expect everyone I meet to speak English. 2) Getting myself to walk up to someone and getting them share with me something as personal as their most important story. 3) This bit is the least difficult for me, but, compiling all the stories, keeping them organized. I would like to write about my experience gathering the story each time as well.
Alright and my last topic. I work at a To-Shin Do dojo, my job title is Office Ninja, I'm not even joking. But To-Shin Do is about more than just the physical self-protection aspect of martial arts. That is a huge part of it, obviously, but it's also about protecting your self from yourself. For example, not beating yourself up about mistakes you make. Allowing that they happened, recognizing that it was your fault, determining how to avoid it in the future, and moving on. This self from self protection also comes in with the people you associate with. (Everyone I associate with is awesome so I don't have as much to worry about here) But if you are with people who make you feel bad about yourself all the time, then change that situation. You should be an environment where you feel comfortable feeling happy. For me the most challenging bit of this is opening myself up to people enough so that I feel like I know them, and they know me. For a long time while I was here I didn't really know anyone and no one made any particular moves to make sure they knew me. They all had lives here already, I was new and didn't know anyone. Now after two months I am enough part of their lives that I have began giving out my number and have been invited to different activities to do outside the dojo. So that's fun.
This whole blog post is basically just procrastination from writing, I think I'll be getting back to that now.
Ok, new subject. I have applied to Semester at Sea. I really really want to go on the Spring 2015 voyage. It would be an amazing, challenging, ridiculous, impossible adventure. Mainly it may end up being impossible because there is no way that I can earn the money required to go on that trip. So, if I get in, I am applying for the Presidential Scholarship. I have gotten the advice from a couple people that I need to be very specific and detailed in how to carry out my plan. My goal is to collect The Most Important Stories of the World. I want to go to people at every port and talk to them, and get them to tell me what they think the most important story is. That is specific as I am going to make it, the story could be about their own lives, their communities life, it could be a legend, or a fairytale, it could be a religious story. Anything. The challenging part of this project is 1) The whole language barrier, I can't expect everyone I meet to speak English. 2) Getting myself to walk up to someone and getting them share with me something as personal as their most important story. 3) This bit is the least difficult for me, but, compiling all the stories, keeping them organized. I would like to write about my experience gathering the story each time as well.
Alright and my last topic. I work at a To-Shin Do dojo, my job title is Office Ninja, I'm not even joking. But To-Shin Do is about more than just the physical self-protection aspect of martial arts. That is a huge part of it, obviously, but it's also about protecting your self from yourself. For example, not beating yourself up about mistakes you make. Allowing that they happened, recognizing that it was your fault, determining how to avoid it in the future, and moving on. This self from self protection also comes in with the people you associate with. (Everyone I associate with is awesome so I don't have as much to worry about here) But if you are with people who make you feel bad about yourself all the time, then change that situation. You should be an environment where you feel comfortable feeling happy. For me the most challenging bit of this is opening myself up to people enough so that I feel like I know them, and they know me. For a long time while I was here I didn't really know anyone and no one made any particular moves to make sure they knew me. They all had lives here already, I was new and didn't know anyone. Now after two months I am enough part of their lives that I have began giving out my number and have been invited to different activities to do outside the dojo. So that's fun.
This whole blog post is basically just procrastination from writing, I think I'll be getting back to that now.
Monday, June 2, 2014
I've Missed You
So, I am currently living in Colorado working at a Martial Arts dojo. This is a great job, I don't start work till three, it's fun, good co-workers, my boss likes me, yadee yaddee yaddiee.
This is also not so great a job, mainly because it doesn't start until three in the afternoon. This means that I have absolutely no incentive to get up in the morning. You'd think this would be great, you get to sleep in as much as you want, how wrong you are. It was great at first, coming out of my rigorous too many classes in college time it was great. But I found that I quickly became bored. And the thing is I sleep in so late that I can't go to sleep until very late. I'v essentially created my own personal time-zone, it's a lonely place. I mean, can you imagine being all alone in your timezone?
The title of this post is "I've Missed You" because I've been silly not to talk to all you non-existent adoring fans out there. Because I am writing like you exist it feels like I am talking to you, it's an up-lifting experience for me. And you all are great listeners, you never even interrupt.
My catalyst for this post was I signed up for Camp Nanowrimo (If you don't know what it is, go look it up, you're online now anyway) and in the setting up of my profile I posted this blog as my website. I wouldn't want someone to click on my website and then see that I haven't updated it in months, that would be a bad first impression. I have 11 days to post everyday so that when someone eventually stalks me (It's got to happen at some point) it will appear that I am a dedicated blogger.
Muahahaha, how little they know!
This is also not so great a job, mainly because it doesn't start until three in the afternoon. This means that I have absolutely no incentive to get up in the morning. You'd think this would be great, you get to sleep in as much as you want, how wrong you are. It was great at first, coming out of my rigorous too many classes in college time it was great. But I found that I quickly became bored. And the thing is I sleep in so late that I can't go to sleep until very late. I'v essentially created my own personal time-zone, it's a lonely place. I mean, can you imagine being all alone in your timezone?
The title of this post is "I've Missed You" because I've been silly not to talk to all you non-existent adoring fans out there. Because I am writing like you exist it feels like I am talking to you, it's an up-lifting experience for me. And you all are great listeners, you never even interrupt.
My catalyst for this post was I signed up for Camp Nanowrimo (If you don't know what it is, go look it up, you're online now anyway) and in the setting up of my profile I posted this blog as my website. I wouldn't want someone to click on my website and then see that I haven't updated it in months, that would be a bad first impression. I have 11 days to post everyday so that when someone eventually stalks me (It's got to happen at some point) it will appear that I am a dedicated blogger.
Muahahaha, how little they know!
Tuesday, February 4, 2014
Fighting Inertia
What I really want to do right now is watch a TV show. Any TV show really, doesn't have to be a good one. The one that I happen to be thinking of right now is Once Upon A Time which is almost a cool idea and almost has good acting and writing and stuff--it's a good mind number while still allowing the critic in me to judge with enthusiasm, really the perfect balance.
Anyway, I am writing this blog post to steer myself away from making the bad decision of wasting 40 minutes of my day on that, especially when I am meeting a friend to do homework 3 minutes. This is the most awful way to justify my thought process here in that the possibility of watching this TV show even existed, but the reason I thought that is because this particular friend of mine is half an hour late to everything we plan on doing. This time I am meeting her in her room so she will have more trouble being late unless she starts talking to someone on her way back from class. I also still need to get dressed. You know, I 'm going to do it. I'll stress myself out to stop myself from watching the TV show. Actually this may have the side-effect of making me watch the show because I tend to run a few steps from my problems before remembering that I could totally kick their ass. Ok my list
35 math problems + math midterm (haven't studied or done any of the problems)
Correct Chem test
Do Chem HW
Do Chem Reading
Start Chem test
Do Bio Reading
Finish Bio Class works (3)
Finish Education Reading
Write Threaded Discussion for Edu
Research for Bio paper
Research for Edu project
Pick up lab book
To Shin Do reading
To Shin Do journal
Contact Job Contacts
Write cover letter drafts
Send out resume
research internships
If any one reads this blog and thinks of a job they think I would be able to do: I'm a dedicated worker, I can easily switch between being task oriented or thinking about the big picture, I'm punctual, and I have a good attitude. Let me know! I need a job/internship this spring.
Thank you!
Ok, I think that's a rough estimate of my next week....it could be not that much, or it could be a lot.
Anyway, I am writing this blog post to steer myself away from making the bad decision of wasting 40 minutes of my day on that, especially when I am meeting a friend to do homework 3 minutes. This is the most awful way to justify my thought process here in that the possibility of watching this TV show even existed, but the reason I thought that is because this particular friend of mine is half an hour late to everything we plan on doing. This time I am meeting her in her room so she will have more trouble being late unless she starts talking to someone on her way back from class. I also still need to get dressed. You know, I 'm going to do it. I'll stress myself out to stop myself from watching the TV show. Actually this may have the side-effect of making me watch the show because I tend to run a few steps from my problems before remembering that I could totally kick their ass. Ok my list
35 math problems + math midterm (haven't studied or done any of the problems)
Correct Chem test
Do Chem HW
Do Chem Reading
Start Chem test
Do Bio Reading
Finish Bio Class works (3)
Finish Education Reading
Write Threaded Discussion for Edu
Research for Bio paper
Research for Edu project
Pick up lab book
To Shin Do reading
To Shin Do journal
Contact Job Contacts
Write cover letter drafts
Send out resume
research internships
If any one reads this blog and thinks of a job they think I would be able to do: I'm a dedicated worker, I can easily switch between being task oriented or thinking about the big picture, I'm punctual, and I have a good attitude. Let me know! I need a job/internship this spring.
Thank you!
Ok, I think that's a rough estimate of my next week....it could be not that much, or it could be a lot.
Monday, February 3, 2014
New Quarter
Well, it's not actually a new quarter, I have my first midterm tomorrow. But, to give you a sense of what this quarter has been like thus far I shall refer you to the post right below this one. That post was written during finals week or the week before, the level of my comprehensibility and intellectual ability has been about that all this quarter.
Now, from that sentence you may want to assume that I have gotten dumber this quarter, while I am not ruling that out as an option, my point is that this entire quarter is like every week is finals week. I do not know how I am going to survive finals week, I really don't. Especially since I am leaving on Friday which means I have to pack up my entire room as well as turn a couple things in early during all of the other finals week craziness. Egh!
I wonder sometimes if it would be good for me to write in this everyday. It might be, but what I really want to do is write in my novel everyday. Don' get me wrong, I love talking to you, you're a great listener, I just would rather see what my characters do in relation to the plot I am letting them wander around in.
This quarter doesn't leave very much time for all this writing nonsense though, so I am not doing very much writing of any kind. My roommate just told me that she didn't think I could go a week without going on facebook. I think that constitutes a challenge. I'm going to do it, no facebook for me. This means that you will be hearing a lot more from me, I don't think less facebook will equal less procrastination.
Update on me: I might have a torn rotator cuff. At the very least my shoulder has been clunking for a couple years, hurting for a couple months, and the doctor says that every time it clunks it's dislocating a little bit. I went to get an MRI and I need to schedule a follow up appointment to talk to my doctor about what it means. I will call the office tomorrow--hold me to that would you?
I think that concludes this tirade. Oh, I may start writing about To Shin Do because I am reading the Complete Ninja Defense (I'm not entirely sure what the title is) by Stephen K Hayes, I know it sounds corny, and to a certain extent it is. But I really like it and I can relate to it, it doesn't feel fake. The concept of it has just been commercialized and bastardized is the real problem with misconceptions. Anyway, I am reading the book for my To Shin Do class and in that class we have to turn in one journal every week. I think that if I write a little bit about what I read after I read it every time here that that would be good for my "mental development in the art" (I made that quotation up). Ok, actually leaving now.
Neeeveermind, I may also write about the state of the education system in America because we have a class on it right now and it is pretty damn atrocious.
Ok, now I'm leaving.
bye
Now, from that sentence you may want to assume that I have gotten dumber this quarter, while I am not ruling that out as an option, my point is that this entire quarter is like every week is finals week. I do not know how I am going to survive finals week, I really don't. Especially since I am leaving on Friday which means I have to pack up my entire room as well as turn a couple things in early during all of the other finals week craziness. Egh!
I wonder sometimes if it would be good for me to write in this everyday. It might be, but what I really want to do is write in my novel everyday. Don' get me wrong, I love talking to you, you're a great listener, I just would rather see what my characters do in relation to the plot I am letting them wander around in.
This quarter doesn't leave very much time for all this writing nonsense though, so I am not doing very much writing of any kind. My roommate just told me that she didn't think I could go a week without going on facebook. I think that constitutes a challenge. I'm going to do it, no facebook for me. This means that you will be hearing a lot more from me, I don't think less facebook will equal less procrastination.
Update on me: I might have a torn rotator cuff. At the very least my shoulder has been clunking for a couple years, hurting for a couple months, and the doctor says that every time it clunks it's dislocating a little bit. I went to get an MRI and I need to schedule a follow up appointment to talk to my doctor about what it means. I will call the office tomorrow--hold me to that would you?
I think that concludes this tirade. Oh, I may start writing about To Shin Do because I am reading the Complete Ninja Defense (I'm not entirely sure what the title is) by Stephen K Hayes, I know it sounds corny, and to a certain extent it is. But I really like it and I can relate to it, it doesn't feel fake. The concept of it has just been commercialized and bastardized is the real problem with misconceptions. Anyway, I am reading the book for my To Shin Do class and in that class we have to turn in one journal every week. I think that if I write a little bit about what I read after I read it every time here that that would be good for my "mental development in the art" (I made that quotation up). Ok, actually leaving now.
Neeeveermind, I may also write about the state of the education system in America because we have a class on it right now and it is pretty damn atrocious.
Ok, now I'm leaving.
bye
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